Today is a day to be grateful for.
I had so much fun. I think it was because of the way I was able to float from one event to the next to the next to the next. I really enjoy my freedom. The feeling like the cage is lifted...and I get to pamper myself in between.
Aside from getting to take a real girly girl shower...one that includes scrubbing with delicious smelling soap, and soak my feet, take care of any shaving... It was awesome. There are days that go by where I don't get to do all this basic me time...like showering. Crazy right? I guess it's because I have 2 kids under 3 years old. ayyyyyyy yi yi yi.
Well, that got to happen today... baby Sol tried peeing on the potty... and well it's pretty impressive since he is only 18 months old.
Today Luna counted to 12, without any prompting or guidance...she just started counting the beads on her necklace. She was confident and just counted. I am so proud of her. She says more and more words each day, speaks in longer sentences, and is so darn sweet. I love her smile, I love her giggles, i love her hugs and whispers in the ear. I just really enjoy interacting with my baby girl. She is almost 3 years old... and she is such a sacred little girl. Her energy is peaceful and so healing... I am so grateful and honored to be her mama bird. Sometimes I tell her to call me MommyMama... it's a bit much, but it's sprung out of the way she always calls her papa, Mama, first. uhhh...so I tell her, if you want to talk to me, call me MommyMama.
haha It's wonderful. She says it very fast...sounds good.
Sol is a cutie. He says "food"..and a new Sol word..."naminaaay" what is Naminay? or Nomine? or Namineeeey? Maybe it means feed me.
After my time at home, I was out to work on a special assignment at Tia Chucha's where I got to be a Poet in the classroom over at Pacoima Charter School. I was a guest Poet of a guest Poet... representing brown women from the community. It was super special. I shared 2 poems: Ocean Mantra, and Sonoran Feathers. I told them to be true to themselves and their dreams. I also told them it was okay to codeswitch and use all the languages you know when you write. They wrote poems inspired by Malala... if you could change the world...what would you do?
I went around and published all the kids that were done with the offical Tia Chucha Press stamp. I had a blast visiting those 5th graders. I hope I can come back again.
I had to go back to work... and then later, after returning home, I returned to Tia Chucha's for a reading/! Q&A for Voices from the Ancestors... a book of wisdom and healing from Xicanx and Latinx gente. My good friend, and mentor, Trini Rodriguez, has an essay in this libro. After the reading, I bought the book. I had to have it... it contains a remarkable amount of knowledge and healing that is rooted in our native ways. It's a source for me, that I think will provide nourishment for a lifetime. As the mother of Luna and Sol, I realize that my peace has a lot to do with their peace and their sweetness. I have to get better, so they can get better. I know I don't have all the answers.
I accept that I don't know them...and maybe will never know them, but I wish to seek help and want to listen to those who do know, or at least know a piece more than I do.
It was a special day... any time I see Trini, it's a blessing...and when Sol plays happily, and Luna smiles and laughs out loud... these are the days. This is the day of my life. A day of love -- my essential Juan -- whom I am so so so grateful for... and just a safe space for my family. This is the life.
Right.
now.
Jessica M. Wilson Cardenas
Feb. 20, 2020
I had so much fun. I think it was because of the way I was able to float from one event to the next to the next to the next. I really enjoy my freedom. The feeling like the cage is lifted...and I get to pamper myself in between.
Aside from getting to take a real girly girl shower...one that includes scrubbing with delicious smelling soap, and soak my feet, take care of any shaving... It was awesome. There are days that go by where I don't get to do all this basic me time...like showering. Crazy right? I guess it's because I have 2 kids under 3 years old. ayyyyyyy yi yi yi.
Well, that got to happen today... baby Sol tried peeing on the potty... and well it's pretty impressive since he is only 18 months old.
Today Luna counted to 12, without any prompting or guidance...she just started counting the beads on her necklace. She was confident and just counted. I am so proud of her. She says more and more words each day, speaks in longer sentences, and is so darn sweet. I love her smile, I love her giggles, i love her hugs and whispers in the ear. I just really enjoy interacting with my baby girl. She is almost 3 years old... and she is such a sacred little girl. Her energy is peaceful and so healing... I am so grateful and honored to be her mama bird. Sometimes I tell her to call me MommyMama... it's a bit much, but it's sprung out of the way she always calls her papa, Mama, first. uhhh...so I tell her, if you want to talk to me, call me MommyMama.
haha It's wonderful. She says it very fast...sounds good.
Sol is a cutie. He says "food"..and a new Sol word..."naminaaay" what is Naminay? or Nomine? or Namineeeey? Maybe it means feed me.
After my time at home, I was out to work on a special assignment at Tia Chucha's where I got to be a Poet in the classroom over at Pacoima Charter School. I was a guest Poet of a guest Poet... representing brown women from the community. It was super special. I shared 2 poems: Ocean Mantra, and Sonoran Feathers. I told them to be true to themselves and their dreams. I also told them it was okay to codeswitch and use all the languages you know when you write. They wrote poems inspired by Malala... if you could change the world...what would you do?
I went around and published all the kids that were done with the offical Tia Chucha Press stamp. I had a blast visiting those 5th graders. I hope I can come back again.
I had to go back to work... and then later, after returning home, I returned to Tia Chucha's for a reading/! Q&A for Voices from the Ancestors... a book of wisdom and healing from Xicanx and Latinx gente. My good friend, and mentor, Trini Rodriguez, has an essay in this libro. After the reading, I bought the book. I had to have it... it contains a remarkable amount of knowledge and healing that is rooted in our native ways. It's a source for me, that I think will provide nourishment for a lifetime. As the mother of Luna and Sol, I realize that my peace has a lot to do with their peace and their sweetness. I have to get better, so they can get better. I know I don't have all the answers.
I accept that I don't know them...and maybe will never know them, but I wish to seek help and want to listen to those who do know, or at least know a piece more than I do.
It was a special day... any time I see Trini, it's a blessing...and when Sol plays happily, and Luna smiles and laughs out loud... these are the days. This is the day of my life. A day of love -- my essential Juan -- whom I am so so so grateful for... and just a safe space for my family. This is the life.
Right.
now.
Jessica M. Wilson Cardenas
Feb. 20, 2020
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